Some things I can't answer

 

November 30, 1998

         Precaution! Its two words in one. Pre(before) and Caution(careful awareness.) Kinda weird that we have to be so careful sometimes that its the danger of life that seeks us. Think about that. It has had me goin allday long. Why are we all so careful? Well there are bad people, accidents, and dangers in this world. Okay, now we be careful, but why extra careful? Is it not the same thing? Or is it just that we all know ourselfs better than we think. So if I went on a trip, and I say that I will take a cell phone with me for precaution... Does this mean that I need to take a caution, NOT a pre-caution. More on the lines of if you take the cell phone, and then you take another cell phone, this would be the precaution. This is a vauge example because I can easily say that my caution is there being a pay phone with the cell being the precaution.

November 29, 1998

        The worst people in the world are the ones that make the examples for us. In this day and age, it becomes more excpted to do wrong. Sad enough, some like to be bad. Sad enough, we all are bad some form or way.

November 28, 1998

        Who ever wanted to change the world? maybe wish for world peace, maybe just live with what you have. But nobody wants to change it at all! Its all a dream. Sacrafice a few things, and make life easier overall! hard thing to do for most people. Easy thing to do is to rest and do what is there for you to do. Ok, I lose. I wont try to convince people or myself to be better. I just hope that I wont be disgraced by the good people, the same way the rude people disgrace the rich.

November 27, 1998

happy Tday 2 all of u, and No entry today

November 26, 1998

       I know I don't update this as frequent as I can, but its not everyday that something makes me see what I'm thinking. I wonder why one day I can explain everything, and the next just be wrong. maybe it's something to do with our biorythms. I don't believe in that astrology stuff. I don't care if its ever right. But some people live off it. Someone like me can make money doing that. I study the mind and how it works all the time. So these people are just ones who study order of events that are more common to us. Maybe I should put up a little monthly horoscope, see if anyone emails me back telling me that I'm a genius.

November 25, 1998

       Who is the greatest artist of alltime? There are many forms of art, so you chose the category. For instance, what would you take into consideration? If the artist was successful? If the artist made things we wanted to see? Did the artist do something that pleased you? Or something that pleased more people than one.Is it an artist who made works of art constantly to express points of view? or was it someone who had quality, and defined lines?

November 24, 1998

      How would someone grow up without a role model? I don't know if I ever had a real life role model. I used to look up to people I saw on TV. Songs I heard about imaginary people. I guess you can say I'm a dreamer. The dreams I dream are ones of which a normal person would allready have. I never had anything, I pretty much grew up poor and uneducated. Everything I learned was on my own. Everything I needed to know was decided by me. I was just affraid of what could happen , I lost all trust for my family. When a friend would reach out to help me, I would get scared. I didn't know how to react. Was all of this because I had no role model? I dont know, but my wishes all choose that life would be much easier than to just blame one problem on everything. Things are much more complicated, and I wish they would go away, leave me alone, and never come back...nevermore. All I ever wanted , all I ever needed , was here In my arms. Words are very unnessesary. They can only do harm. Believe me , I agree.

November 23, 1998

      Love means many things. Some people are afraid of this word, Some need it more than anything to survive. But this time and date, how the world is frequently changing, so is the meaning of love and time. Lets stick with love. We pursue it one way. To be IN LOVE, I know there are people out there that love there friends, and they are lucky to know a better knowledge of the word. But to others... it scares them, someone cares about them! How are they supposed to react? Love them back? But they can't, they aren't ready. Some don't understand supreme care is love. In-love is rare, and when you're in-love why do you frequently test it. There should be one definition for love. LOVE

November 22, 1998

      Hate is a strong word. Why do we hate things? Why do we say we hate things? Sometimes hate is something we actually love. Tomarow you hate it, tonight you love it, and vise versa. Not possible. Or is it???