Today I watched one of the greatest mood altering movies I have ever experienced. I have seen it many times. Watching it close , almost to a great perfection, I have seen only 2 mistakes throughout it. Edward Scissorhands.... one of Vincent Prices last movies. Everything about it reminded me how precious things are. How someone with so many flaws, someone that has pure innocence, can just take over the heart so well.
     I wished it would snow because it was so beautiful. I haven't seen snow since last year. The presence of it scares some people without realizing that it resembles truth and alterization of the seasons, how mother nature glows among us.

     Everyone has stress. Wow, how bad stress has been building up inside of me lately. New area, new friends, new life... My old memories will be cherrished and lost somehow. Scary thoughts. my whole life just meant so much to me today, though I was determined to change. This was it, no more! I need a sure fire to good to be true plan. I said to myself. I know, its because I care to much. Everyday hearing people let go of things so easily, becoming so sad. Not even considereing trying anymore.

     Trendy people, trendy personalities. In a day an age of pure originality, why do people follow others? Is this a sign of insecurity. People not wanting to chose, just follow. If you would ask any person, they will tell you they are a leader... but why do they follow. Sure if you goto a store , buy a shirt, buy a CD, you follow the someones ideas, but if you chose to lead does that mean you cannot care about the ones you are leading? Does this make you a loner? Or is this your choice to lead part of a group effort, which your own talents and knowledges stand out? Who knows. None of us will ever be a true leader. Maybe have more power than others, have a more trusted say in things, but we will never experince the role in the great democracy we are in.

     Memories. Remember all the most important things in your life? Remember every detail? Definately. The most important things are of your own opinion, you couldn't forget them. Memories are the diffrences between pain and happiness. How could they not? What if we had no memories? We all would be innocent. All would be given second chances. But to risk those great memories that we have experienced, maybe even it was a few. So precious we would keep them over a new life. What a great feeling. Knowing that our permamnent records are just in our heads. As will ever be, and to those that remember you as bad shouldnt have anything to do with you anyways... solving every problem is as simple as living each day as if it were your last to the fullest of your abilities. Happiness is part Love, and Part to succeed as a happy person...in other words a choice.

     Whats time? One of the most confusing questions ever to be presented. Time can be of many things. Some say its a measurement of the day. Some say its an object of past present or future. But is it really? Maybe time is just a word that is open to a million defentioins. Im sure what I hear is true. But why? Time in other languages hass diffrent meanings, in which all other languages self-based completely open up. Number of sunlight. Evening..morning..afternoon? Long days, short days? Confusion is marked. Time is not a universal word from what I have learned. But to society, it is of the MOST universal of words in any language. How can this be?

     Scared Half to death from a stalking experience. The night of halloween is over. Everyone plays on halloween and tries to get scared, all I wanted to do was have some fun. Boy did I ever. I was supposed to meet an aquaintace that I have been talking to over the net. Everyone hears stories of how they happen. Well I met more than two dozen people from the net and had no problems. Infact making close friends along the way being the best way to meet people for me. I esspecially enjoy it because of how your personalities come fouth before attraction or lust.
     The mother came to pick me up at my house. Of course along the lines I have gained a great trust in people so this wasn't a problem for me.I didn't see her yet, though I seen her friend, and her friend was pretty much normal, just a little crippled. I thought since I spoke on the phone with these people many times, that it was just an acceptance between them. I Got there, about 30 miles away from home, still not seing her, walked arround. Finally, there she was, an extreemly obease, inbreed hick. I'm not saying all people that are mentally challenged and are inbreeded are badd, but she just scared me so easily. I was afraid to say anything wrong so I kept really quiet. As they kept asking me to do odd things. As they danced the macareana years after the dance and song has become an odity, and how they talked about marriage to Maralyn Manson soon. I was about to just run home. I knew her mom was going to take me home later, so I toughed it out. I later found out her mom and dad were brother and sister. Never in my life was I so freaked out. I was at a "party" full of inbreeds, mentally challenged, psycho kids. Really had no manners. Inside I felt they were going to seduce me. White as a ghost I agreed to do what they wanted to do. We took a walk arround the area because I felt it would be safer to leave that house. They decided they wanted to stop at someones house, so we did. In there I was inside where I saw her sister and some of her friends. They were very normal. I was so glad, but then I was still scared I didnt say anything. They were laughing about my situation, as we left. One came up to me and said, "I feel so sorry for you." About to cry, we all walked out with the normal people still inside. We were leaving , then they came out and said they were going to go out and if anyone wants to come is welcome, directing that to me. Stupid me! I didn't react. They kept walking, and as I said a few amount of words,"Where are we going?" She told me that we were walking to an abandoned graveyard. Right then and there my pupils widened, breathing deeply. My life was in stake because seeming very much so these people didnt know the diffrence from right and wrong. All done was done for fun. As two started talking about the last night how they strangled someone for fun, I was extremely going nuts inside, heart beating with an incredible impulse.The two talking were a couple that one was 14 and the other 26, both very retarded.We hit a house that was well decorated, and then the sister and her friends drove past and stopped, Yelled out my name, told me to come over. I was scared, wasnt thinking clearly, but after a few minutes I said "Hold on , I'll be right back." went over there and said save me please. They felt so bad for me, not knowing that It could as well be a lifetime long friendship about to be made. Well then the crazies all walked away finally, and they said that they could take me home. They drove me home, and stayed in my house talked for a few minutes. Saved my life pretty much. Ironically this happened on Halloween.